justrun-.

feel like i've lost it. maybe i've been schizo for the last 1 year and my alter ego just died. along with my ability to train and race properly.

it's not even a question of not trying hard enough anymore. i just feel like i've lost the ability to do it. or maybe my fairy godmother who gave me that ability took it back cos i've been such an idiot.

i say i can't cos i know i can't.

i feel numb.

everything's just screwing up and i'm to blame for it all. i cannot do this anymoreeeee. it's no use pretending.

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

put on her shoes at [19:55]

and took [20080203] strides

it's the passion that drives you